Are God moments rare or do i rarely see god in my moments?

​I used to be big on identifying "God Moments" in my life. These moments that felt so intensely influenced by something beyond my control that they couldn't possibly be anything but God.

Today, though, I find myself wondering, did those God moments occur in my life because God actually made what felt like a rare appearance, or because I spent so many of the moments of my life not seeing God in my moments that my God moment was created out of my self-created sense of rareness?

More simply and maybe more understandably put, are God moments in my life rare or do I rarely see God in my moments?

I try not to point out God moments these days. Because when I do, I hear God asking me in return, "but what about the moment before?" As if when I acknowledge God for showing up in this moment I unintentionally accuse him of being absent in the moment before.

As if when I only honor God for showing up in this moment of goodness, I at the same time accuse God of being incapable of goodness in my moments that feel more like struggle or tragedy.

In some ways, really, I've come to feel like am I playing God when I call a moment a God moment. Like I am playing God by inventorying my moments into God moments and moments that are not.

I am writing an article right now. About God's presence. Is God more present in this article I write about him than he is in an article I write about Notre Dame football? I don't think so. And these days I strongly feel like God doesn't like me suggesting which articles he shows up for and which he does not.

In fact, I find my relationship with God grows stronger the more moments I recognize that God is there, with me, in that moment. Because it's not like there's a moment when God is not actually there, only moments when I choose not to see him there.

I mean it's like sharing a house with someone. A partner, maybe. You are there together but only choose to see each other at the dinner table. Or watching together a show. You have relationship moments. But it's not like you aren't in each other's presence otherwise, you are just picky about the moments of that presence with which you choose to honor the relationship.

The more of them you honor the stronger the bond.

God is no different.

I think God has a hard time feeling close to us as he sits and wonders when we will next honor his appearance. I think we have a hard time feeling close to God the more picky we get about the moments we choose to honor his appearance.

I am writing you this message right now, this is a God moment.

You will soon read it, that will be a God moment.

Years from now, maybe, my sons will read this. That will be a God moment.

God gave me the gift of writing, that was a God moment.

For years I refused to use that gift, that was a God moment.

Every moment.

A God moment.

The closer we get to seeing every moment that way, the closer we draw to God.