I am not ill-equipped, i am simply going the wrong way

​I have pictured God in a conversation lately. It's a conversation with God where I am begging him to give me what I need to get where I'm going. Give me these final few things God, and I will get there.

And I'm frustrated in this conversation, because God knows these things I need. He knows it better than me, if he'd simply hand them to me, I will be there.

Today.

Only in this conversation God isn't handing me these things; he's shaking his head. And he's mumbling. And more and more I can here what he's mumbling.

He's saying, "you're going the wrong way."

God isn't depriving me, he's preventing me.

God isn't depriving me opportunity, he's preventing life from stealing it from me.

Because it's true, what most often prevents God from doing what God wants to do through me is Keith finding ways to do what we Keith wants to do through himself.

And because it's true, maybe one of the most infrequently asked questions from me to God is, where do you want me to go?

How often am I frustrated at God for not providing me the things I need to get where I want to go before I've ever asked God where it is he wants me to go?

Often.

And how often, when it's my frustration that I don't have what it takes to get where I want to go that it's God's even greater frustration that I have more than what it takes to go where he wants me to go?

Often.

I am reminded today to ask more often in the midst of my frustrations, God, where do you want me to go?

I am reminded today when I get to feeling like I don't have what it takes to get where I want to go, that I am not without the right stuff but without the right directions.

God longs to be far more a guide in our life than a provider. Because the reality is, when we lean into his guidance we discover we already have everything we need.

But too often, we want to be our own guide in life.

Which leaves us feeling ill-equipped and incapable of getting there.

Well often we are not ill-equipped and incapable, we are simply going the wrong way.