Jesus Wanting All of Me is about me, not him

​Today, Goff tells us how much he loves books. And, how when he used to lend a book out, he would obsess over the book until it was returned. In cases when someone lost the book or damaged it somehow, it would drive him crazy. So instead of lending books, he decide he'd just start giving them away.

If someone wanted to borrow a book, he said keep it and pass it on to someone else when you're done.

His point was we cling too tightly to things. When we do, it distracts us from things that are more important.

Then he makes the point even bigger when he says, "I don't think He (Jesus) wanted us to be distracted by keeping track of so many things - who owes us, who wronged us, who ignored us.

You know, one thing I appreciate about Jesus is he's straight up with us. He doesn't hide that he wants us to think about him ALL the time. He wants our efforts to be pointed to him ALL the time. He wants our hearts to be filled with him ALL the time.

He's always been demading of our all.

But, that said, I do think Jesus is cool with me when I'm shooting hoops in the driveway with my kid and my mind isn't all Jesusy in that moment. I think he sees father and son and maybe sees that as more of a focused on Him moment than I realize.

On the other hand, though, I'm traveling a lot for work this week. There's a lot of time in the car. My mind gets to drifting to those things Goff points out as distractions - people I think who owe me, have wronged me or ignored me. Those are the times I think Jesus is wondering what on earth are you doing?

(In the background right now - somewhere above me or behind me - I can see and feel him shaking his head and saying "yep")

I think people who don't get Jesus and the power of his relationship in our lives probably read this and think Jesus is an egomaniac of sorts. Who could demand someone think about them all the time - shake his head at us when we get distracted by the real world.

Well, for me, Jesus is the real world. And - a decades old experiment to this point - when I don't get distracted away from Jesus, my life is more fulfilled. I'm happier and more content.

Every one of those distractions above - they leave me bitter and empty and restless.

Every time.

So Jesus wanting all of me - it's not about him. It's about me. And us. He wants the best for us.