We just want god to close the loops in our lives

​Today, Goff asks us to consider how weird it must have been for Joseph when Mary told him she was going to have Jesus. A virgin birth. The whole thing had to seem crazy to him.

But then, eventually, Joseph was there to see a baby born in the manger.

Man is it hard to hold on sometimes until the baby in a manger comes.

So many times in my life I've had to say, "God, this is really weird."

Weird that you're making me suffer through this.
Weird that you won't hook me up with this job I want.
Weird that my kids are challenging.
Weird that I feel lonely or hurt or broken.
Weird that you have some plan for my life you won't tell me about.
Weird that it rarely feels like your interested in MY plan for my life.

But then God always comes around with these baby in a manger moments in my life. Where he gives me brief glimpses into his plan, brief reminders to just keep trusting him.

Goff says "unfortunately life is full of open loops."

So much of life doesn't get explained to me. I've spent a large portion of my life looking for the loops to be closed.

If you won't close that loop God - then you aren't real. That was my thinking. And open loop after open loop just kept coming my way. I was a life in the midst of a bunch of crazy lines - no circles.

Then one day I just said, OK, I'm going to trust you to make a loop out of this string God. And he made a loop. And then another one. And another one.

Trust me - there are still a bunch of open loops in my life.

But trusting God is in the middle of those loops has brought miracles to my life that demanding he closes them never did.