Who Am I?

​We are all walking conversations. All day long conversations chatter away in our heads. And Steven Furtick is right, for much of my life my conversations have either been me agreeing with my limitations, or me arguing with my past.

The thing about those conversations, even though the days change and the seasons roll along, both of those conversations leave me in the exact same place.

Life goes on, me and my conversations stay right where we are.

When I spend my time trying to argue some revision of my past into place, or spend any time believing I am not cut out for my vision for the future, I go nowhere.

And if you believe what I believe, that we are all created to go somewhere, go somewhere only you and I can uniquely go, these conversations are at best a waste of time. And at their worst, they are destructive to you and to me and to the world that would benefit from receiving our unique creation.

Lately I've been working hard to focus on having one conversation. And that conversation isn't with me, it's with God. It's a quite simple conversation, really.

It's one question: who am I?

I know some won't believe me, and I understand that and am okay with it, but God does answer that question when I ask it. When I ask with deep sincerity, with deep curiosity, with deep commitment to his answer, God answers me.

Always.

His answer starts with reminding me that I will never find myself in the arguments about my past. No part of me is found there. I have indeed been shaped by my past, but I don't exist anywhere in the re-writing of it.

His answer also assures me that I will find no part of me in my conversations about what I can't do. God reminds me limitations don't define what I can be, God does.

God reminds me if he created me to be it, limitations have no say in the matter.

It's amazing how much of yourself God will reveal to you when you let go of the past. Let go of the conversations about it. Let go of the things you do to try to protect yourself from it. Let go of the things you do to try to hide from it.

You quickly discover that in hiding from the past, you've been hiding from you. The you that God is dying for you to know.

And it's amazing the places God will start taking you on this journey of discovering you when you hear him say, I am your tour guide, not your limitations.

Too often we take this question of who am I to the world. There, we will often hear answers that tell us who we shouldn't have been or who we'd be better off being.

But God, the God who created me, the God who knows my design and my purpose, God will always tell me who I am. And God will always remind me that who I am has nothing to do with undoing or becoming.

Who I am will always and only be found in being. Being who I was created to be.

Too many of us think there is no answer to that question, who am I.

Well there is.

There is, if we will ask it in the right place.