Wisdom Can't be found in loneliness

​There's an anxiousness that comes with I'm in it alone. When we're anxious, it's hard to learn. It's hard to observe the world around us with any depth. Any search for meaning.

It's hard to gather wisdom.

Sometimes I'm awed by the wisdom I've gained the last several years. Not in a bragging sort of way, but more from a place of gratitude. Gratitude to God and gratitude to many of you.

Writing has been my way of making sure I'm never alone with what's banging around in my head. It's not a venting or an offloading as much as it is a sweet release.

I think that's what relationships are supposed to be. A sweet release. I've not had that in relationships.

Some of that is my own doing; some of it is not. I'm a work in progress.

But I do know it's possible to be in a relationship and yet within it be in a place where you're alone with what's banging around in your head. In that situation, I think a suffocating mind is more brutal to endure than a suffocating lung.

They both leave you fighting for life. It's a suffocating mind, though, that can drag that fight out for decades.

But when you get this chance to share what is weighing on you, what you've been carrying, what fears you have about the next day - or the next second. When you get the chance to share out, you open the door for the world to share back in.

You create a pathway. A both ways.

When you have a chance to sweet release all that torments you, you suddenly have the chance to hold more of what lifts you. You make room for it. You invite it.

And it's not simply about the release. In fact it's not that at all. It's all about the reminder that I am not alone with this.

I am not alone with what is banging around inside my head.

Maybe ask someone today, hey - what do you have banging around inside your head? You can ask it playful and light; I guess that question could come across creepy.

But ask it with unmistaken curiosity. Ask it with unmistaken invitation. And safety.

There are a lot of suffocating minds out there looking for sweet release.

Maybe you are that sweet release.

Maybe you are a source of life.