Yesterday, I was leading an all day online training. I was at a bit of a handicap because my Zoom-guru-tech-savy training partner couldn't join me. So I had to fly solo.
Late in the afternoon, my greatest fear came to life. A voice on the other side of the screen said, "Keith, we can't see the screen you're trying to share." Panic. Because I could sure see it. Why couldn't they? After pushing a few random buttons and arriving at a place where even I could no longer see my screen, another voice chimed in, "I think I can help you." And suddenly the trainee was training the trainer. I arrived back at where I needed to be. After a little delay and a whole lotta help, the training carried on. I confess - for a minute there I was lost. I needed the audience to see what I was trying to share. I had no idea how to make that happen; making the evil wrongs of technology right is not my strength. And in being lost, feelings of dread and hopelessness started flooding in. There is also this. Even in the panic I knew things would one way or another work out. I was able to keep the dread and hopelessness mostly silenced because I knew what I'd shown up to that training to do. Yes - for a moment there I had no idea where I was. But I never lost sight of where I wanted to go. Sometimes life throws us into uncertain spaces. But I got to thinking this morning, we are only lost in those uncertain spaces if we are uncertain about where where want to go. Not knowing where I am is only tragic if I have no idea where I want to go. Life has been filled with uncertainties lately. Some weeks have been one uncertain day after another. But I assure you - I am uncertain, not lost. Some days I don't know where I am, but I know where I am going. There is panic some days, for sure. But there is never defeat. There is never hopelessness. A lot of that is because I've surrounded myself with good people in my life who will speak up and say, I think I can help you with that. A lot of that is because I have a God constantly reminding me that He is the way. With him, it's impossible to be lost. A lot of that is because where I want to go is progress, not a destination. With progress. uncertainty is key to the journey. It's Ok if you get to feeling uncertain today, just as long as you know where you're going. Remind yourself of that today. Remind yourself that you may be uncertain about life, but you are not lost.
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Robert "Keith" CartwrightI am a friend of God, a dad, a runner who never wins, but is always searching for beauty in the race. Archives
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