I know God has to be saying, finally, he gets is. He gets that I haven't had near as much interest in changing the situations in his life as I've had in changing him.
Because that is a truth about my life that God fully knows. I've spent a lot of my life in challenging situations because I mistakenly thought the situation was the challenge and not me. God, when are you going to deliver that promotion so my job won't suck so much? God, when are you going to help me move from this town so I can live in a place that will make me feel better about where I live? God, when are you going to improve my financial situation so I don't have to worry as much? God, when are you going to fix those people in this relationship so this person won't be so miserable in it anymore? I've spent a lot of my life wondering when God was going to fix the things in my life instead of being open to the possibility that God was using those things to change me. We miss those opportunities; we remain closed to the possibility that those challenging things are here to promote change in our lives when we spend all of our time running from those things. Or running to the next thing that sounds and feels better than the last things. We miss a lot of opportunities to change when we believe life is about our circumstance and not the person we become as a result of them. It makes a world of difference when you start living your days asking yourself who am I becoming and not what am I making of my life. I like to imagine that when I meet God face to face, he is going to ask me, WHO are you and not WHAT are you. What are you begs for details about what you made of the circumstances in your life, who are you begs you to recognize and give praise for all that God made of you through your circumstances. I know God wants me to make something of my life, but if it is at the expense of not letting it make something of me than God probably thinks I'm missing the point. And I did. For a long time. But today I am constantly open to becoming who God desires me to be. Today I am much more open to exploring the challenging circumstances in my life for the possibility that God wants those challenges to shape me. Today, I am open to far more exploring than running. Because I know God isn't trying to change IT as much as he's trying to change ME. I know God, it's about time. I am thankful that who you are is a patient God. That alone has made a world of difference in both me AND my circumstances. Thank you.
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